Only Me

I look to the left and to the right and twist around to face the back, I see everyone with smiles, laughter and happiness on their faces. Three of them to the left are poking each other laughing gently; some people to my right are vigorously jumping in the air, seems as if they have won some bumper prize and people at the back, they are as calm as the sea basking in the sun with no worries. Watching them gives me a bit of pleasure and I unknowingly creep into their happiness. But before I could feel the joy I abruptly get back into the reality.

The reality is that, of all the human beings in the whole world, I am the only one who is the most troubled man on earth. The smallest of things leave a big scar on me. There are so many problems to be dealt with and I’ve no resources of any kind in hand. Thinking of the yester years, I have always gone through similar stages and when I foresee my days ahead, I am not assured of better days. Through all my life till date, sadness, fear, anxiety and stuffs like them have reigned.


I call up some close ones, the voice on the other side doesn’t seem to be least interested in talking to me, they sound like as if they are in a deep sleep or pretty busy but then again I feel like I’m being ignored. Probably I’ve got to do something to my way of thinking and my perception towards the world. Most of the times, my heart has always won the race to reach a conclusion before my brain does. I really rely on my heart which is why I guess I’m a troubled man or my heart is lot bigger than my brain I should say.

Day Of Serene

Now is the time, I can write enough, talk enough and publish them in my blog. Everyday is not Sunday but a dog has its day. Since the twenty second March, I’ve been literally floating in the air, I find love scattered everywhere, I haven’t gotten angry with anyone these days and I’m finding a lot of time to do everything. I wake up early in the morning, cook my food, head to the office and I’ve been making phone calls to my friends as well. In the evening too, enough energy is left after a long exhausting day to cook my food, do the dishes and go to bed with a blushed smile on my face. The following day also proves to me a good one.

This day also started in a glorious way. My alarm didn’t go off but her call from miles away woke me up. I had a long chat with her and yet I was successful in making my breakfast before leaving for the office. No matter what, after a long awaited time, my life seems to be garnered with all possible factors that make up a beautiful life. Despite the massive load shedding hours I’ve been managing some couple of hours to have a glimpse of her in my messenger. On top of that sending a couple of lined text message to her is what I enjoy most.

I still believe that there are more hurdles to cross but I’m well prepared. It feels like holding the sky on my shoulders would yield no pain, running miles wouldn’t tire my limbs and with her on my side, I’m readily available to take on the world. There’s no strength that can beat me at least for the moment. With all these happiness, there comes a huge responsibility and the ironic is that I’ve been enjoying them to the most. I may not have enough support but then again, Id be too much for the hurdles to crash me. There’s nothing that can put me down. Words merely speak louder than act, but this is me a very determined man on earth and I’m on the course of challenging each and every one of them and I’m pretty confident of myself coming on top. I’ll get down on my knees and plead to my ancestors to give me enough power to overcome all my difficulties.