It’s a strange feeling that I tame on a number of occasions on regular intervals. The day is dull with very less work in the office. My mind keeps worrying about several things despite my tremendous effort to divert my thoughts to something else. I walked out of my room in the office and out of the compound. I didn’t know where I was going but my feet kept walking. After several steps away from the main gate I thought to myself and wondered where I was going. I tried to think of a place where I can go and sit but in vain. I even tried to retreat my steps but some kind of force seemed to be propelling me. I didn’t know where to go and couldn’t decide a place that I’d go but my feet kept moving. I was literally astonished with this strange supernatural facet of mine as my mind was unstable and my feet kept walking. I simply can’t put this into words but it was somehow shocking. Now I fear I’m really going insane. I can’t even tell this to anyone and even if I did, I’d simply be a very nice character to be cynically laughed at. By the way I am very cautious about what people might think of me which is another burden that adds up to my worries.
Earlier in the morning, my sleep broke unusually very early. To add a bit of relief, I noticed that there was electricity. I turned on my computer and started to write an email to her. Before I could finish the mail, lights went off. This was an excellent time to add more woes to a heap of troubles of mine already. A disastrous start to the day; I thought and got myself ready to confront the day. While having meal I had a small chat with my mom and out of the blue I happened to tell her something about my sister which was not necessary for her to know. The news brought my mom to a great despair and there was nothing I could do about it. For, it wasn’t my fault and sooner or later mom would know everything. I too was helpless as I was unable to provide comfort of whatsoever to her. Before leaving for work, I peeked into my mom’s room and there she was, saddened by the news which was easily readable from her face. I simply said, ‘Mom! Don’t worry, everything will be fine someday’ and closed the door behind me. I waited for a few seconds hoping to hear her say something but she didn’t response.
They say, ‘morning shows the day’ and I realize they’re right. Half the day is gone and moments earlier I was like a maniac walking out of the office premises heading to nowhere. Half the day is still to go and I await an agonizing wait to the ending of this particular day. I have enough gathered enough guts to go and face the day till the end.
Earlier in the morning, my sleep broke unusually very early. To add a bit of relief, I noticed that there was electricity. I turned on my computer and started to write an email to her. Before I could finish the mail, lights went off. This was an excellent time to add more woes to a heap of troubles of mine already. A disastrous start to the day; I thought and got myself ready to confront the day. While having meal I had a small chat with my mom and out of the blue I happened to tell her something about my sister which was not necessary for her to know. The news brought my mom to a great despair and there was nothing I could do about it. For, it wasn’t my fault and sooner or later mom would know everything. I too was helpless as I was unable to provide comfort of whatsoever to her. Before leaving for work, I peeked into my mom’s room and there she was, saddened by the news which was easily readable from her face. I simply said, ‘Mom! Don’t worry, everything will be fine someday’ and closed the door behind me. I waited for a few seconds hoping to hear her say something but she didn’t response.
They say, ‘morning shows the day’ and I realize they’re right. Half the day is gone and moments earlier I was like a maniac walking out of the office premises heading to nowhere. Half the day is still to go and I await an agonizing wait to the ending of this particular day. I have enough gathered enough guts to go and face the day till the end.
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